Mockingbird by Blueking141.pdf

Mockingbird by Blueking141

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Now hush little baby, don't you cry

Everything's gonna be alright

Stiffen that upper lip up little lady, I told ya

Daddy's here to hold ya through the night

I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why

We feel how we feel inside

It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby

But I promise momma's gon' be alright

Mockingbird, by Eminem

Prologue: March 15, 2010

I ran.

I ran faster than I think I ever had in my entire life. I would have taken my car if

the fucking thing wasn't parked 10 minutes from the front of this stupid office. I

truly regretting taking this job now just for that reason.

I ran hard, and I could hear each labored breath that came out through my dried

up lips. It was cold today. I couldn't really feel it though. I just need to get there.

I knew this was a possibility, but I always thought that it could never happen to

her. To me. To us. To my family.

I finally arrive to the place where my whole family currently is. A hospital. I really

fucking hate hospitals. I never ever wanted to come in one of these places ever

since that day so many years ago. That is why Bella had a home birth for me.

Two times.

I hesitate at the front door of the hospital, and feel like I could throw up.

Thousands of images flash through my mind, and they are all from that night. I

feel like I shouldn't remember that anymore. It is in the past. This is the present.

This is the present, and my wife needs me. My children need me. I've already

failed them enough.

I take deep breath and push every bad thought from my mind. Just think about

Bella's face, Edward. Just think about your beautiful children's face. Think about

how scared they must be right now. That is your fault. Go fix it.

I walk into the hospital and walk straight to the front desk. My mind is focused on

my family and nothing else…for now.

I approach the desk and the woman behind it looks like she would rather be

anywhere but here right now. Don't we all.

"I need to know the room number for Isabella Cullen." I tell the woman, and she

has the nerve to roll her eyes at me. What the fuck?

"And are you related?" She asks and pops her gum.

"I am her husband." I tried to stay as calm as I could. There is no need to just

flip out on this woman.

"Room 315." She says and I run to the elevators and make my way to the third

floor. I keep my eyes closed and my mind focused the whole time. I need to hold

it together.

The doors open and I make my way to Bella's room. I stopped dead in my tracks,

however, when I heard two of the most beautiful voices calling my name as I was

passing the waiting room.

"Daddy!" I heard my little boy and little girl yell after me. I look behind me, and

see Liam and Peyton staring at me with raw fear in their eyes. I feel my heart

explode with pain, and I walk back over to my children.

I squat down in front of them, and they both latch onto my neck and start crying.

I feel my head clear up, and my mind ease as I hold my children in my arms.

Things aren't perfect though, when I know my love is just down the hall, probably

in pain. I turn my head and kiss each of theirs.

It feels good to have them both in my arms, but it felt especially good to have

Liam in my arms. Even though he declared that he hated me and wished I wasn't

his father, it was still good to know that deep down, he didn't really mean it, and

he still will come to me when he is feeling scared.

"Shh, you guys, please stop crying." I plead with them. My heart couldn't take

their tears. It reminded me of their pain, and what they just witnessed.

"Daddy, Mommy was shaking. She was shaking a lot." I heard my little girl tell

me and I held onto her tighter. I didn't have a chance to respond, because a

commotion came from down the hall and caused me to look up. I saw Emmett

make his way toward with murder in his eyes.

"You filthy son of a bitch." He said as he approached me with his hands clenched

at his sides. I saw my Dad walk out in between the both of us, and hold Emmett

back, but Emmett fought against him.

I held on tighter to my children. "Not in front of them, Emmett. Please." I said as

I looked him dead in the eye. I knew he hated me right now, and I deserved

anything he wanted to do to me. But I also knew he loved my children and

wouldn't want to hurt them. I saw him look at both of them and then calm down

a little.

I looked off to my right and saw my Mom was looking on at the scene with her

hand over her mouth, and tears running down her face. "Mom." I said and my

voice cracked. "Can you take them down to get a snack at the vending machine,

or something." I asked.

"No, Dad. Please stay with us." I heard Liam ask and my throat began to burn as

I tried to swallow down the lump in my throat. I want so bad to have them stay

with me, but I also didn't want them to see their Uncle yell at their father.

"I need to talk to Uncle Emmett, and go see your Mom and then I will be right

back, alright buddy?" I asked and pushed his hair out of his face. "I love you,

Liam. I need you to know that okay? I know that I have made a lot of mistakes,

but I love you and your sister more than anything."

Peyton lifted her head from my shoulder and kissed my cheek. "We love you too,

Daddy." My little girl told me. "Right, Liam?" She said and looked over at my son.

He stared at me, contemplating. "Yeah. I love you, Dad." He said and I felt a

wave of warmth pass through my heart. It has been too long since I have heard

those words from my son.

"Okay, so I will see you both later, okay? Just go with Nana." I said and they both

nodded before walking out with my Mom. I looked after them, and when they

were out of site, I felt large hands grab my collar and slam me against the wall.

"How many times did I tell you this was going to happen?" He asked rhetorically,

and I tried to look anywhere but in his eyes. He slammed me back on the wall,

and a sharp pain went to my head. "How many times!" He screamed in my face.

"Emmett, you really shouldn't be doing this." Carlisle said from my side. I wanted

to tell him to not worry about it. I wanted to tell him I deserve this. I deserve to

be yelled at. I deserve to be put down. I deserve for him to hit me. I deserve so

much worse than any of that. I did this to them. I allowed this to happen.

Emmett looked at me fiercely, and then finally let go of me. "You are right; he is

not worth my voice or my strength. But I am going to tell you something right

fucking now, Edward. You better do something about this. Grow a fucking pair

and do something!" He screamed and his face got redder. "Or I swear to God,

Edward. I will find a way to make sure those kids are away from the both of you."

He said and then turned around and left.

I knew he was right. I needed to do something this time. Not little things. I need

to do something big. I need to change my methods. All of the other ways I have

tried have been wrong.

My Dad tried to say something to me, but I stopped him. "Can I just go see her,

Dad? Please just let me see her." I plead with him. He must have noticed the

desperation in my eyes and then led me to her room.

He patted me on the back at the door, and then I opened the door. I looked over

at my beautiful wife. I walked closer to her and grabbed her small hand in mine.

She looked pale and as sick as ever. It killed me to see her like this. She has

always been so strong. My savior. My love.

"Why did you have to do this to us, my love?" I asked and the tears finally

started falling down my cheeks. "I have tried so damn hard for us, baby. Why

couldn't you just help me?" I held her hand close to my heart that was breaking

below her palm. "I love you so much, Bella. I just wish it was enough. I wish it

was enough to fix you. There is nothing in this world that I want more."

Chapter 1: Truly Happy

January 13, 2002

EPOV

"Isn't he just the most beautiful thing you have ever laid eyes on?" My love asked

from her spot beside me. We were both sitting on our bed, and she was holding

our newborn son. I had my arm wrapped around her, and my other hand playing

with my son's small fingers.

"He really is." I said as I kept looking at this beautiful creature that was created

with mine and Bella's undying love. He was just born about five hours ago, and

he was already the center of my world. Right along with his beautiful mother that

I have loved my whole life.

Bella gave birth to him in the bathtub of our home. She did it for me. Ever since

that day, I have not been able to step foot in a hospital without either breaking

down in tears or having a panic attack. Bella has tried to help me in any way she

can to get over that fear, but it never works. So in order for me to see my first

child's birth, Bella decided to have a home birth. Thankfully everything went well

and we were greatly rewarded with this precious gift.

"Well I really don't want to call him 'it' for the rest of his life." She said and

looked up at me with her big brown eyes. I laughed because we never were able

to think of a name for our child. We never found out the sex, so we figured we

would figure it out when we saw our baby.

"Why not? It is a nice name." I teased and kissed the side of her head.

"It is isn't it? It Cullen. That is very unique." She said sarcastically and laughed. I

laughed along with her.

"Yeah, I guess not." I said and continued to play with my son's hand. He was

sleeping peacefully, but he would still grip my index finger with his little fist. He

was strong. "You know I have a name that I have always liked for a boy." I said

quietly.

"Really? Well what is it, baby?" she asked.

"Liam." I said simply. It sounded like a strong name and it has a nice meaning.

The name Liam means 'determined guardian'.

"That's the one, Edward. That is this little boy's name. He looks just like a Liam,

doesn't he?" She asked.

"I think so."

"Then it is settled then. This is our son, Liam." She said and looked at me and I

bent down to kiss her perfect lips. "I think I have a perfect idea for a middle

name." She stated and went back to looking down at Liam.

"What is that?" I asked.

"Edward." She said simply. "I think it would be very fitting for this strong boy to

be named after his amazing and wonderful father." I felt my heart swell with

pride just thinking about my son having my name.

"Are you sure? I thought Edward was a stupid name." I teased and kept my eyes

on my boy and could hear Bella let out a small laugh. It was like I was under a

spell. I couldn't keep my eyes off of him. I felt if I looked away, I would look back

and he wouldn't be there. This felt just like a dream.

"Oh shut up, of course I am sure, Edward. I love you, and I think it would be

perfect for our son to be named after you." She said sincerely and looked up me

again. I leaned down and kissed her forehead.

"I love you too, Bella." I said and she smiled and looked back down to our son.

"Do you know when everyone is going to be here? I can't wait to finally introduce

our son to someone." She said excitedly.

"Go ahead. You can practice on me." I smiled. "Introduce me to our first child."

She smiled and held on tighter to Liam and scooted out from my arms. I sat up

further on the bed, and she got to her knees and still held Liam close to her

chest. She shifted him, and held him with one hand on the back of his little head,

and the other on his bottom. She held him out to me so he was facing me. He

was still sleeping, but he began to squirm a little and move his arms around

because of the new movement.

"Edward, my handsome husband." She started, and still had her smile on her

face. It was good to see her like this. To see her happy by her own account, and

not an artificial happiness that comes from the inside of a bottle. I really hope

Liam can change things for her. "I would like to introduce you to the most

beautiful little boy on this planet. My son. Your son. Our son, Liam Edward

Cullen." She said and then handed him over to me.

I laughed and took my son into my arms. This wasn't my first time holding him,

but it didn't stop the warm and comfortable feeling I got in my chest when he

cuddled himself closer to me. He squirmed a little, but then just sighed and

relaxed in my arms and fell back asleep. "He is amazing Bella." I said sincerely

and she laughed.

"I know!" She squealed and the smile still remained on her face. I wish I could

freeze this moment forever. I want her to always be this happy, this is the kind of

happiness I work so hard to try and keep with her. I heard the door bell ring. "I

will get it!" She said and then got up from the bed and walked toward the door.

"No, Bella let me go." I said and got up from the bed.

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